A true insight

I was searching in my e-mail account that how many peoples were requesting to be my friend. Where I found one of my ex-office colleague, when I worked in a software house. The software house was closing its operation in Karachi and taking some staff to America while other staff were being fired. My colleague was also among those fortunate people who were being taken to America while among other people, I was dismissed. In short, I opened his Facebook account and viewed the pictures attached there. In pictures, he was camping in a park, seeing that I was very sad that if I had been offered job in America, I would have also been enjoying there like those people. I remained whole day in this gloom, but at night when I was going to pray, a new thought came to my mind that OK. I would have been making fun there, but in return I would have to leave my mom here in karachi over others. And I think that those people could have not taken care of her as much as I could have. And finally, my mom was died in year 2012, and in this period, when I would be there in USA. And I am dam sure that, I would have been blaming to myself for going to America for the cost of my mom’s life. So, I thanked to God, that He kept me along with my mom at her last time and I should not be regretful for not having gone to America.

Reading Books

I think when I was as young as five years, I started reading books. In our neighborhood, there was a young boy who in his home keeping empty fruit box upside down used to give little story books on fare which I started to take. On that time, the fare was so cheap as one ana (six paisas) which were closed later on because Govt. has ended the use of Annas. Anyway, I come to the matter, from there I started reading books. My first read books’ measurement were only five inches square comprising not more than ten pages. They were all about jinn’s and magicians who used to keep in prison to beautiful princesses which were released by strange princes or other poor lumberjacks and usually in ends they lived happily after marriage. This type of book reading ran for two years and after them I started reading Naunehal—a child digest, which was the best magazine which can be read in juvenile age. I got lot of benefits from this magazine and my general knowledge increased at a par level. During this period, in my school, I used to participate in quiz programs and most often I used to win and received prizes. This period ran as long as I came to ninth class, I started reading detective novels, they broadened my thoughts and that time they had much fascination for me. When I came in college I started to read Imran Series which were also detective type novels. I loved to read these novels so much that due to them, I did not give due attentions to my valued studies and did not get selected for any good professional careers. But those novels laid a good impact on my life too, as from that time when I was seventeen years old I started physical exercises which kept me in best shape albeit now I am in my early forties. Like the hero of novel – Imran, I tried to become multifaceted personality, now I can do easily mechanical works like repairing of electrical appliances and in the same way I have the flair of literature reading and also love to do figure works like accounting and involving into the data base related works which are also parts of my current profession. Anyway, when I came in my graduation, I started reading pure literature works like novels, pros and poems of famous writers which created depth in my thoughts and broadened my intellectual faculties. After diving few years into literature, I started to read religious books which even now are in my practice, they laid a great impact on me and I think that I have been on track of true knowledge and they are making me think that life is going to its end and due to that thought, I seem to be a stranger in this world. This attitude gave me a great relief and I do not take any body’s comments and misbehaving about myself seriously and left to become angry and sad. So, this was my whole travel of reading as from which stages my reading passed and now where it lies.